february dreams.

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-joe and i are walking along the highway with a bunch of others. people ask us about the diner, i'm pushing a shopping cart which i then fill with discarded commodities found on the side of the road. we said we were going to virginia.

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-zombie supermarket. dave would fucking love it.

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N/A

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-usual penrose dreams, moving too slow, not able to get food out, etc.

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-andrew has been showing up in bits and pieces...strange. tomorrow is his birthday.

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should have written it down when i remembered it.

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-joe and i had an "about time" kind of fuck, kept getting interrupted.

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-someone looking out of the front window, i could see them from the street.
-buffalo exchange was starbucks, ordered a triple grande hazelnut soy latte. dave drove a bunch of us there. steve was talking about conquering girls and friday nights.
-aunt lucielle's old house, everyone was there. i kept trying to open up drink cans, but the tabs were faulty, had to keep pushing my thumb through them.

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-there was some kind of big scandal at the penrose, i didn't know/care, was at a club with a bunch of old faces (brittany and christiana were there), tommy showed up with tara...i went to the bathroom and practically shit my brains out, the toilet was overflowing and leaking liquid everywhere (omg) 'til some black guy came and cleaned it up. i had to go back to work to pick up a bag of t-shirts. i called sammy, he showed up in the stall with me (my phone's clock read 3:02 am) and he started to tell me about the scandal but then i woke up.
-i took a nap with mike gabow, asked him for his belly.
-joe, tom, and i were driving away. we kept picking up people, somebody named angus and a bruce who lisped. suddenly tom (tom was driving) kept changing positions, new people showed up in the car without us ever stopping. then joe and i were napping, same room i napped with gabow (like dave's room in a different house), i pulled a giant sword from out of the bed before we got in and these dream sequences always end in the penrose for some reason.

10.
-i don't remember much but julia dunn had brown and blonde dreadlocks and was in love with my father.

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-helped hot new joe clean a room that wasn't his.
-went to a terrible open mic, tried to smoke outta percy with joe and sammy.
-sang a "na, na, na" refrain in a bathroom while some young guy played guitar and sang.
-talked to jeff!
-empty liquor bottle cabinet?
-steven bryson lived in this awesome nyc apartment with two giant king beds that everyone was hanging out on. i was explaining the difference between a liar and a storyteller to holiday, how a liar is tolerable, but i can't stand a storyteller. i told joe about it, but he was quiet, moved to a chair and played guitar. he and allison were singing in a call and response kind of way. i tried to sleep,but there was a small blonde girl, maybe three or four years old who was still awake at such an hour. she looked like the boy erik i used to babysit--she was as rambunctious as he was; her hair was nearly see through and her eyes impossibly blue.

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-was at yakitori boy with mom, dad, danny oliveri, lena and freddy. danny kept slapping my shoulder with a laugh.
-taking the nyc subway, loads from a bowling alley, had no idea where i was.
-something about bebe guns.
-joe brushed and braided my hair.

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-dave lost a ton of weight; he and his mother were being unexpectedly nice to me, even offered me a ride to work...we were in my parents bed at some point, surrounded by a ton of pillows and i held him in my arms as he slept.

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-girls were poking me in the chest, wouldn't let me walk down the street. i kept swinging them into cars, but they kept on.

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nope.

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-kept calling this girl sinead when her name was dinyah.
-kept reminding myself of money stashed in a zipper pocket in a handbag. not sure if real.

18.
-joe was at my mother's with me. we had a big blanket that we hid under on the parlor floor. he kept trying to fuck right there but my parents were in the room. we went to my bedroom, gave him a beej on the floor. we tried to shower but i couldn't open the pack of razors and the floor was getting wet.
-something about owning dogs. we had a little cat who was buried under litter. i kept trying to clean him, he would bite down on my fingers, but it didn't hurt.

19.
-i was going to spit on his bed, he asked if i wanted to sit around the table.

20.
i got nothin'.

21.
-ton of people over my mom's house, watching some award show, everyone was sitting in the dark at first. my sister and i were sharing a plate of food. there were so many people. my grandmom had these small brass earrings that i was contemplating stealing, cause i knew she'd never notice, but i didn't, but i kept picking them up and looking at them, considering.
-i was standing by the stove. people were over, we were all laughing. joe was standing in the kitchen entry. he beckoned me with his finger into the other room but i woke myself up instead.

22.
-joe updated his blog with a bunch of cryptic messages that holiday keping texting me about, saying, "see? see? see?"

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-billy had an idea to build a fucking food bomb, which was mostly cheese curds and a giant uncooked turkey. four people on the staff (of the explosion) died. i touched one of their bodies by accident and was so afraid of how warm it still was. then it all became a weird office party with zombies. i tried taking out an awfully chatty lady who wouldn't break or bleed, in fact she looked normal but i thought she was infected. steve told me to leave he alone; he said "she's just trying to mingle."
-was late for work, dad drove me home which was dave's new apartment, which then became down the shore. before all this, i was running with a boy who asked me to follow him. then i was down the shore. three girls, two guys were hanging out on a balcony, kept thinking "heathers." i was topless wearing just a skirt. i went inside to put on clothes, 1 girl was standing outside of my room, we exchanged a smie. i was rehanging up a mirror i knocked down when i turned on the light, saw someone behind me, disappeared when i looked, looked to the girl, she looked different, then behind me again, going back and forth, the girl was changing shapes. i grabbed her and she kept changing in my arms, i yelled "wake up!" and it felt like a rush of air, like someone releasing the lid from a jar once i finally did wake up.

24.
-there was so much but i can't remember any of it. that's why i should've slept in my own bed.

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-at a science museum with andrew, we split up, i meet a guy that looks just like him. outside there was a light show and the clouds were acting funny. i met back up with andrew and he made shadows across the sky. was kind of disappointed because i was enjoying silent flirting with the new andrew.

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